I’m gonna be honest with you, I’ve been holding back a big part of myself lately. Last year this same time, I blogged about my journey of moving beyond Christianity . . . and it was scary and exciting and controversial and it was kind of the rite of passage for me becoming a fully authentic version of myself.
But since then, I’ve held back.
I like the peace that comes from not talking about controversial subjects. And there is a time to hold back, and there is a time to share. And now the time has come to share again.
I realized this morning that I’ve been holding back, not for fear of judgment anymore, but because I don’t want to make people uncomfortable . . . my family, people who still really love Christianity and church, and I thought . . . I will just keep that part of myself to myself.
But then I had the thought, “What if I didn’t worry about people being uncomfortable? What if I could just feel free to be me, and stop feeling responsible for everyone else? What if there is no more perfect time to be ME, than now? What if I could just share from my heart about where I’m at with my faith, with no agenda to convince anyone else, but with the simple desire to share ALL of me. To hold nothing back, to just allow myself to BE ME? Don’t I deserve that?”
Of course I do. I let everyone else be who they are. And I admire it when people share authentically.
And I also had the thought,
“How can I NOT share something that’s brought me so much freedom? So much joy and peace and ecstasy? How can I keep that to myself?”
So here’s the deal: I’m not gonna let the worry about others being uncomfortable keep me from sharing anymore.
And in this week’s upcoming Coffee Time show, I share it all. All the stuff I’ve been holding back. And it feels pretty damn incredible. Huge weight lifted. So thank you, Amy Winebrenner, for your post on my Facebook page yesterday that inspired me that I can share ALL of me, even the controversial parts, and that others don’t have to agree with me in order for us to love each other. More to come on this subject.
And make sure to stay tuned for Coffee Time this week. This is one you are NOT going to want to miss. Raw. Real. Controversial. Fully Me.
P.S. Haven’t seen my weekly YouTube show yet? It’s 25 minutes of inspiration every week — just me in my van, drinking coffee with you, talking about lots of great stuff that will encourage and inspire you.